yeah, but I see it as a, for lack of a better word, a sterile thing. doing what does. and we're in it, but we're just as it is, running to eventual nothingness. there is no disconnecting from it. we can ask why, but it is just the universe asking itself "why?" and then talking about it...
what is its purpose? no clue. hard to see. like a drop of water in the ocean, trying to spot a fellow drop of water, next to it. right there in front of you, all along. looking right back.
i realized much of the same, but with heavier religious context. i was an atheist for my whole life until about 2 years ago. i know such discussion is forbidden here, so ill leave it at that.