I'm having a bit of a tough time right now. I do not want to break any rules, so I will be vague. My job is incredibly stressful and even more so with current circumstances. My life is generally very stressful as a single income family and even more with current circumstances. For years I handled all of my stress and pent up aggression by using a substance that has just recently started to become less taboo and legal in parts of the US. I never felt overly stressed. I was never really angry in my day to day life. Three weeks ago my job changed it's policies and I was required to sign a document stating that I could be let go from my place of employment if I used said substance even if I was doing so in accordance with laws in my state. This is not an option anymore as I have a responsibility to my family to stay employed. I was ok for a week. But the last two weeks I have been feeling a pit in my stomach and I am having to really bite back words and actions and I just feel as if at some point the pot is going to boil over and I am going to just explode. I'm depressed and I don't know how to handle it and I need some sort of outlet. Guitar helps, but there is only so much angry punk rock music you can play or write before it doesn't help any longer.