There’s a huge hole in my heart

Twofingerlou

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I try not to get to personal but I’ve posted a time or two previously with my grandmas struggles, the struggle we as a family have had to do to help her which we collectively were more than were happy to do.


We spent Christmas in the hospital last month and got her home a few weeks ago. She had been doing better than her previous returns from the hospital but still required 24/7 care with my uncle pulling all week since he’s retired and my mom pulling weekend duty. Mom being a nurse she really got on her about doing better which was working.

I went to the store after work yesterday and had a random thought, I’m going to buy grandma some roses since I recall those being her favorite. Why? It just crossed my mind then and I can’t tell you why. I gave them to mom last night before she went up for weekend duty and granny loved them.

9:30 this morning I got the call you never want. My mom was in a hysterical mumble I couldn’t make out and heard sirens in the background. All I remember was you better get in your truck and hurry, I’m a half hour away. Twenty minutes later I got the second worse call from my uncle, we lost her.

Mom is kicking herself for not doing something sooner when she had a feeling something was off but went into action and did her part until ems arrived.

She was 87, you’re never ready for this despite knowing her age and the recent history she’s had. She was my second mom spending the summers with her growing up. The sweetest lady everybody loved. She was a big baker throughout her life and love dishing everybody cookies and goodies for ages. The memories from being kids and she loved Walmart runs and would give my brother and I each five bucks to buy whatever we wanted. All the movie nights with sleeping bags on the floor and her awesome meals. I could write a book but I’ll spare you but needed to vent.

There’s a huge hole in my heart, I’m still trying to wrap my head around it. I’m trying to wrap my head around the random idea of buying her the roses and the timing of what’s happened. Mom said their next move after getting ready this morning was taking a picture of her holding the roses I got her but they didn’t get that far.

Miss ya granny

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I have been around a lot of passings and I am convinced that things like those roses are not a coincidence. Call it a spiritual connection or something, but I do believe it is a real thing.

I still recall walking a mail route 2 years ago and smelling burnt oil and noting how much it smelled like the terrible french fries my Dad used to make when I was a kid. Then I received the call that my Dad had just died.

Just too many stories like that to be able to ignore.
 

Twofingerlou

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I have been around a lot of passings and I am convinced that things like those roses are not a coincidence. Call it a spiritual connection or something, but I do believe it is a real thing.

I still recall walking a mail route 2 years ago and smelling burnt oil and noting how much it smelled like the terrible french fries my Dad used to make when I was a kid. Then I received the call that my Dad had just died.

Just too many stories like that to be able to ignore.


We’re not a religious family but more power to those that are. Do I believe there could be something more? Sometimes but really idk.

We had the calm before the storm when we lost one of my aunts to cancer but none of us got that vibe with grandma. I’ve heard some people say some start mentioning certain things to remind others of particular items when the time is near.

Grandma had bought my brother and I expensive tie tacks with our birthstones years ago after we were born from the local jewelry store. She showed me the wrapped boxes that the jewelry store did when I was a kid and said someday when I’m gone you boys can have these. The last couple weeks she kept reminding my mom saying the boys tie tacks are in my jewelry box don’t you forget.

She would collect coins or bills with our birthday year and put them in a container. The last couple months she had been on my arse saying honey go in the back closet and get that container out of all your coins and cash I’ve saved for you with your birth year on it. I kept telling her maybe someday but she worked hard going through all that and wanted her to keep it. I used to joke with her abkut taking that money and spending it and she would rip me a new one.

My uncle had been with her all week, mom went up last night and they had a good dinner ect and a good time but losing her happened on moms watch this morning. I’ve had to call and talk to some close friend to tell them the news that loved granny too. One buddy said well maybe she wanted to see your mom once more and knew she would be in good hands with her being a nurse.

This stuff makes me think bud but maybe I’m overthinking it.

I regretfully have the tie tack in my Possession which I haven’t opened yet.
 
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