As a kid (in the 1980s): I wanted to compete in BMX racing, but I didn't have a lightweight BMX bike and all the gear. Instead, I had a heavy Schwinn Stingray. So I rode the eff out of it and conditioned myself so that I could keep up with the BMX kids on open courses. I wished I had a *real* bike so I could enter official races. Oh, how I dreamt of the possibilities! I wanted to learn how to program computers. So I split wood and cleaned horse pens for $$, and bought an obsolete Commodore 16K used. I learned how to program the eff out of it and could talk intelligently about programming with the Atari, Amiga and Apple kids. I always wished I had a color display, more clock speed, more memory, some storage device (instead of pen && paper) and more *computer*, like everyone else. Most of all, I wanted a better programming language to be available to me. Oh, how I dreamt of the possibilities! I wanted to learn how to play the guitar. Again, I split wood and did yard work until I could buy a neighbor's 1960s Teisco rebrand. It was a real POS. I put together an amplifier out of basket case parts. I took that guitar and amp and played the eff out of them and got to where I could hang with all the *real* players around me. I always wished I had a real guitar and a real amp. Oh, how I dreamt of the possibilities! As a guitar player I experimented with multitrack recording, using several boomboxes and patch cables that I made out of busted headphone cables and such. I always wished I had a 4-track or similar multitrack recorder that would make everything easy. Oh, how I dreamt of the possibilities! Key point: Things were hard, but it was never a barrier in my eyes. I just worked harder and got what I wanted out of it. Adapt and overcome! Now I'm in my 40s. I have an adult-sized hybrid bike that probably weighs less than my Stingray did. I have something like a dozen guitars, all of them awesome compared to the Teisco. I have many amps, some of them historically iconic. I have probably 10 computers, all of them with insane cpu/mem/storage/hd display and an amazing level of everything better than the Commodore of old. I can use any programming language I want. Also, computers now can do high fidelity recording with unlimited tracks and super easy editing. Key point: The barriers are gone! It's all easy now! My 12-year old self is now vindicated! I am now the master of my creative destiny! But I have no creative energy, no drive, and little to no 'eff' for exploiting the things I can do now. Things that I so pined for then. I've struggled with this since my 30s. I don't know when things changed, or why, but I'm 'old' now. I don't do anything. I don't have that creative spark like I used to. I'm boring. Some people seem to have avoided this. They retained that creative spark and drive from their youth throughout their lifespan. How do they do that, or how do they keep from losing it all? Has anyone ever recovered from being 'boring'?