To the OP: Blacking out when drinking can have several causes. No food recently, drinking too fast (due to peer pressure or just excitement), a medical problem, being dehydrated, or maybe a deeper problem having to do with your life. Only you can decide what is going on. The people here at TDPRI may try to help you, but this is something you need to figure out. Otherwise, some day you may have a few drinks, black out and wake up in jail or worse, in the hospital. Not everybody is an alcoholic, some people just make bad decisions occasionally. You don't sound like an alcoholic based on your post. Binge drinking is more common than people realize and causes most of the DUI's that people get and the wreaks and injury and deaths that sometimes happen due to overindulgence. If anyone doubts this, ask a DUI lawyer. They will tell you the same thing. And statistics back it up. Sometimes, people just overdue it at a party or restaurant or whatever. Most people who get DUI's aren't alcoholics even though there are certain anti-alcohol groups who imply otherwise. That leads to some people thinking alcohol should be banned again. A real alcoholic has serious problems. They feel they have lost control and many times can't stop regardless of their desire to. That is when intervention is required. Making a decision to "never drink again" is usually not a good idea because most people don't stick to it. It is just easier to say, I'm sober and plan on staying that way today. Being a responsible spouse and parent are some of the most important things in our lives. It's good you are considering the effect this may have on your family. As a AA counselor once said in a meeting I was at: "intoxication is overrated, being sober is the best way to be". I agree.