Your post had me in tears, tele-rain, it reminded me of my Dad's death from pancreatic cancer 5 years ago. You're absolutely right, living with such terrible illness is no life at all and attempting to prolong life in such circumstances would not have benefited your Mom in any way. It's far too soon yet, but that terrible sense of loss does ease with time and all the good memories will be there forever. Lean on each other and on God, in full knowledge that, in spite of all the pain and suffering in this world, there is a time and place better beyond comparison. Thoughts, prayers and peace be with all of you.