I'm sitting in a late night meeting listening and watching people work things out... ideas, reports, strategies... all that stuff... And it has been a really full day. I typically arrive at work by 7, I drive about an hour to work and I knock off about 4 or 4:30 except meeting nights... this meeting will run til 10 or so, so that is what, a 15 hour day plus the hour drive home... I got some coffee at 5 so, I'm not sleepy... just a little world weary. But, I took some time today to think about all this... life... and living and working and the suffering so many people endure... and a guy has to wonder, why do people do it? But, for me, I know why. I like to see what is on the next page, the next chapter, what will happen next, what I might do or what might happen... and that keeps it interesting even during tough times. A few years ago, my son hurt his knee and when they examined his heart before surgery, they discovered a rare and potentially deadly problem with his heart. In a month, my hair turned grey. It was a terrible time... when he was a year old, I was diagnosed with cancer. Some TERRIBLE things... and yet during it, I wanted to see what would happen and if I could make it. Friends and family members have suffered from depression and it is so debilitating and it has to be a terrible thing to suffer from... I guess my thinking is that I know a lot of folks here go through a lot of terrible things and have to suffer and I hope this site is one where you can share and get some support... but, keep turning the page and moving from chapter to chapter even during the long, painful ones. I do not know how the story turns out, but my wish for each of us is that we read on and keep going. I won an award once, it was a big award at my company and I was asked why I was successful and I said, 'I'm not the smartest engineer or the fastest or the most creative, but when everyone else might give up, I stay interested and just keep going until the problem I'm working on figures out that I won't give up, then the problem decides it has had enough and it gives up.' Don't give up. Often, there is every reason to, all I can say is.... just don't. Grind one more day. Sorry for the soliloquay, I know it is corny... but, so many of you are my friends and very selfishly, I do not want to lose you to depression or disillusionment. Reach out if you need a hand. Nearly all of us are more than willing to listen and hear and root for you. This place isn't the usual internet, it has always been better and more and it still is.