I'm in great despair. My sisters recent death, and I found out this week that an old friend in my home town has passed. I also have some serious problems in my life that I can't talk about that are overwhelming. I don't sleep, not eating worth a damn, my blood pressure is up and I'm drinking every day. My stress and depression are beyond description. I pray for serenity but I've been feeling I have been abandoned by God. I do have very good friends that stand by me, maybe that is His way of helping. I don't know because I'm not thinking clearly. I don't know why I'm posting this, I guess because you guys are an empathetic group.