The exact details aren’t important but I have known this gal for a very long time and have always “been there” for her when she has needed help. Despite what my mind has told me, in my heart I fell for her some time ago and she knows it. Of course, she would deny it if you ask her, but yes she absolutely did “lead me on” many times; she’s frequently been…extremely close to me while she was practically naked, though I have never taken advantage of her (I’ve never touched her private parts); we’ve never had sex. She periodically tells me emphatically that we cannot be together romantically yet she does things that imply differently. Oh and she has become an alcoholic, she’s seriously drinking herself to death. Maybe worse stuff too. An event today has finally confirmed what my (big) head has been telling me for some time: I need to somehow remove herself totally from my life. Part of me doesn’t want to move on…but for my own sanity I must. Somehow I must resist the urge to reach out to her—it would be easy to justify it but I cannot continue to be a fool. Perhaps one day she’ll sober up. Thanks for letting me vent.