I've always been fascinated by my passage through time, more and more so as I get older and continue to live and learn. Sometimes I'm so sure of who I am and how the world works and then things happen and everything changes. I'm about to get married. No one ever thought this would happen, me included. We're also close to buying a house, which again ranked pretty high on everyone's improbability charts. I don't know how I pulled this all off, but I am very happy. To come from an unsupportive, hostile childhood through decades of social and chemical problems and a completely selfish headspace into a happy family life complete with stepchildren... Every day I am overwhelmed with amazement at how I managed to get here. It's really nice. I still haven't put it all into perspective yet. But it's cool. Also cool: a card and a gift of $ from the job where rumor has it I am not loved but tolerated. And the manager who not so subtly suggested I look for other opportunities signed it. Heh.