I am a hopeless guitar addict. I would tell myself that 2020 is the year I acquire no more guitars, and find a way to be content with the ones that I now own, but that would be intellectually dishonest. I know that that is not a vow I can keep. One thing at a time though; I'm also a hopeless, passionate, lifelong drinker of whiskey, wine, and beers. And so now it's now been exactly a month since I quit drinking. And I have vowed to remain sober, in order to stay alive. The damage I have done to my body, and liver in particular, is uncertain. But I know that I can heal and get healthier, and hopefully outlive the expectancy that is the curse of my family name. (I'm 60, and none of us can name a Sparkman male who has lived past 75.) Part of my sobriety is finding ways to adjust mental gears, and to break the lifelong culture of recreational drinking and evening alcohol-based relaxation. Abandoning "drinking as a mechanism for peace, pleasure, and contentment", I mean. I have to learn to be relaxed and content without the alcohol in me, and to be peaceable enough to be creative and make joyous music. That means that I am endeavoring to play the guitars more, and to collect them less. For most of us, it's impossible to be creative and musical when things aren't just right. It takes a certain measure of 'getting the chores done, and putting the house right' before we can relax enough to sit down and play music, and really enjoy it without pacing or looking at the clock. I am not there yet, but I hope to get there. Many reformed alcoholics report that they feel better and more spiritually alive once they put down the bottle. Right now all I feel is unsettled, vaguely pissed-off, and restless. But I have high hopes that I will turn that emotional corner, and begin to feel happy about this self-imposed sobriety. Most counselors will tell a chain-smoking drunk who is early in sobriety, "Don't try to quit smoking on top of quitting drinking. One thing at a time, and your sobriety is more important right now". I just wish I could find a credentialed counselor who will tell me the same thing about collecting, buying, selling, and trading guitars. "Johnny, it's okay. Don't try to quit the guitar thing right now. Concentrate on being sober first....." Damned medical profession. Where are they when you need them?