Can we talk about that here? In a bad way? 16 years I've been dealing with this. Last year, after Memorial Day weekend, I had to go to the hospital for withdraw symptoms. Heart racing, body shaking, couldn't think straight enough (delirium) to call or text my boss, let alone drive a car. Like the Nathaniel Rateliff song S.O.B., no joke. I had to have my fiancee take me to the hospital. Just happened again a few weeks ago too, that time via ambulance. After lots of out patient therapy, and taking lorazepam off and on over the last year, I finally decided to try to get into an inpatient facility. Just waiting for insurance to approve it. The withdraw symptoms are brutal, it starts when your head hits the pillow at night, and the nightmares begin. You wake up covered in sweat, sometimes with a fever, racing to the bathroom with chills, and then back to to the the cold sweaty wet bed. It all started when I first got divorced in 2004. Bought a new house in little town south of Tallahassee (where I didn't know anyone at the time), a few beers at night for sleeping self medication. Not such a great idea in the long run.