Some of you are aware of this, but I never made a "formal announcement" because, honestly, I wasn't sure at the time how I'd handle all the replies and PM's. I'm not a talk things out" type The best thing you can do for me is use the link at the bottom of the page. On 12/31 -- New Year's Eve - we lost our 23 year old son David to suicide. It's the absolute WORST thing that can happen to a parent; David was also my best friend and, because of my disabling chronic pain and neuropathic issues my primary support/help. AND jamming partner! And It's not like I was "hiding" the situation - it was just the opposite, as family and friends have been talking about suicide openly. David was 23 and despite all the amazing thins he was doing with his life suffered from clinical depression. He was virtually fine over Christmas was getting ready for a final college semester - where he was mostly going to be a teaching assistant in physics and some kind of advanced math, we talked about going out and me getting him a new iPhone on 12/31, We ordered a Tokai ES-335 clone on eBay in 12/29, he was messing around with friends and laughing on 12/30...and sometime during the night of 12/30-31 he was gone. We have no idea what "tipped him over" and neither does anyone else. But we all know we missed *something*, and because of that we have made suicide prevention a major part of our lives, mainly through the American Federation for Suicide Prevention. David was a Renaissance man - he did more cool stuff in 23 years than most 70 year olds , and I am NOT exaggerating a bit. He was a genius (seriously - a math and physic guy with an IQ estimated to bee over 170), incredible guitarist & drummer (primarily free jazz and "math rock" One song title is √(i)/0), recording engineer, writer, photographer, comedian, skydiver, surfer, pitcher, cleanup hitter, skateboarder, coffee expert/barista, gourmet cook - his older brother and I laugh because every single thing we started him on he ended up better at - and had a HUGE number of friends (over 400 showed up at his "celebration of life"). And he was gay, which in his life never had a negative effect or thought by anybody. It was just something he was, like a baseball player. Anyway, some of the forum member that I've known for decades are aware - I thought I should let every one know - because if you know anyone in a shaky situation or are in one yourself - talk, hug, call somebody, get help. If you're getting help and still having issues there ARE alternatives. The important thing - be alive. As far as donations go - ANY amount, no matter how small, will help (and is tax deductible). You can help me by donating for David - because if this post saves just ONE life we've done something amazing and saved not only a "victim" - but every family member and friend. Thanks!! You can read about David here: https://easyreadernews.com/world-didnt-time-david-sliff-obit/ And my AFSP.org donation page is here: https://afsp.donordrive.com/participant/1693798 FWIW here's the guitar we ordered. It arrived 12 days after he died. Took me 5 days just to be able to open the box. Man, he would have gone *nuts* over it.