My deepest sympathies and condolences friend. The only 'cure' for any medical condition is immunisation and even the developed world has an eversion to its proven scientific application. As for depression the nature of its biochemical effects debilitates the sufferer. You become your own worst enemy despite your efforts to 'battle the affliction' as it undermines your motivation and enjoyment of life. The things that ultimately live for give you no pleasure, your body just won't make those happy chemicals. As someone who's had to deal with depression throughout my life I can only say you can and should get help. You can't do it on your own. At the same time only you can make the effort to help yourself. Putting the work into being as physically heathy as you can, avoid alcohol and drugs which are counter productive despite being dangerously alluring for treating symptoms! The rock and roll lifestyle was a terrible role model to me as a youngster. I remember Alain Bourdin telling Iggy Pop that in an interview recently and I had to second the notion. You don't need drugs to play music, even reggae believe it or not! My favourite on stage banter came from the lead singer of the Hives. In the middle of a performance he called out to the audience 'If you love yourself then let me hear you say yeah!' which was met with an uncomfortable silence. He said it again....no response. Then he said......Well if you don't love yourself how can you love me? Before launching into another instant mosher. All the best friends congratulations you already have music on your side.