I don't necessarily play only for me...but "me" is all that ever shows up in my practice nook. Seriously, I think we'd all love to hear praise about our creations. If positive feedback were what kept me playing, I'd have quit years ago. My friends and family are "nice" about it, but any videos I've shared with them aren't exactly setting the internet on fire. You say this is breaking your heart. Can I ask, what reaction would you like to see? Realistically, if you were being completely honest...what do you want to happen?