Hey, first of all I’m sorry for whining here like a baby, you don’t know me, I don’t know you guys, and most of you probably don’t really care so I should just man up. Still I feel the need to get it out of me: I’m 28 and I’ve been through many relationships. 2 of them quite long, both ended with a huge disappointment. That + the fact that my dad left my mom after 20 yrs of happy marriage left me horrified and insecure. So I begun 2012 by building up my life, re-evaluating things and living it as it was best for me. Plenty of shows, new songs, studio time, video shoots, etc… I was truly happy, and I promised myself not to get into anything serious just for the sake of being with someone. I had some one night stands, some that wanted more, but I turned them down as life is too short not to have really high standards. Then, one night after a show I hooked up with the most beautiful girl I’ve ever seen. I knew she was only 18, so I didn’t even think about getting serious (oh, it would never work!) , but that was fine with her. We met up a few times during the summer but all of a sudden we fell for each other. She was very mature, and such an extraordinary girl, that despite my fears I gave in. The age difference caused difficulties at times but we worked on it because we loved each other. She looked up to me, her parents and friends loved me for making her happier than anyone so far. She’d never had a long relationship before, although she had many, she couldn’t really love any of those guys, but me. However, things changed. The fact that she loved me more than anyone else before, and that I loved her like she was never loved before scared her. Only 18, what if she gave up everything for me at such a young age and I left him later? This made her unsure…For a week she acted strange, we didn’t see each other, she needed time to figure things out. First I understood because she’s been under a lot of pressure lately and had many problems, so I gave he space and let her know that I’d be there for her through this. Then at one point I realized it wouldn’t matter what she decided: if after 5 months she’s not dying for me, and she needs to figure out what she feels it’s certainly not enough for me to go on and invest my love into her. From now on I wouldn’t trust her enough to get through the upcoming months (final exam, summer break while I’m at work, college, new friends, etc…) So I drove to her place and told her all this. She broke out in a hysterical cry when I left but she didn’t try to stop me. That was all I needed to know. I know I did myself a huge favor and prevented months, maybe a year of jealousy, fights and anxiety, and I wouldn’t get back together with her even if she begged me, still I can’t let go. She’s such and extraordinary girl and I really loved her. This is totally killing me… What happened to the world? 50 years ago people married at 18-20 and grew old together without worrying about risks and “missing life”. Nowdays you can’t trust anyone, people give up love for “freedom” and “living” but it’s sad and lonely. I wouldn’t date a girl of my age, they’re so different, but the younger ones are not willing to commit at all. She said if I wasn’t 28 or she wasn’t 18 she would give up everything for me without a second thought, and everyone is telling her that she’ll never find another guy like me. It’s so tragic, why is this world so shallow, and eager to give up what’s most important to meet the expectations of this rushing world? I want someone I can grow old with happily. Am I being too naive? If you’ve read all the way through, thank you, and I’m really sorry for whining in self-pity, but it’s so tough to move on.